Title: ~Spiritual Seeker~

Gender: Female

Age: Ageless

Sun Sign: Cancer

Chinese Sign: Water Boar

Location: Waukesha, WI 53188-2799

Hello!  Let me start off saying that I am a very open person!  I shock people at times with the things I say or talk about, but hey, I'm all about honesty.  I try to be very open minded as well, view things from many ways to get a better understanding.  I'm always thirsting for more knowledge.

Even though I've made a lot of mistakes throughout my life, (and I do make a lot), it's better then just sitting around doing nothing and letting time pass me by.  I feel it makes me wiser to have experienced something first-hand, not just hear about it or read it somewhere.  I guess that's how I have always learned best, through experience, and visually.

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This fall I plan to attend college full-time, while holding a part-time job.  I know it wont be easy, but I'm prepared to work extremely hard because this is what I really want!  I find things much more rewarding when you truly have to work towards them, I'm sure it's the same for everyone else.  You just can't give up, because for all you know, you were only one step away from succeeding.  Failing and falling down is part of the process of success!  It teaches you how to overcome other obstacles you previously didn't realize existed.

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Background:

I've moved many times in my life, making it very difficult to settle and make friends.  I have been to 5 high schools, at least 3 middle schools, and to at least 3 different elementry schools.

I've also lived in a group home, a residental treatment center, and a foster home.  Trying to find myself seems to be a difficult process because I've been so scattered with everything else in my life.

I have two brothers, one older (Joey) and one younger (Andrew).  Each about a year apart from me.  Andrew already has 3 kids of his own all within 18 months of each other.  They are beautiful babies, I love them to death and want to be a perfect role-model for them!!!  I am their only aunty, so I feel special.

My mother, most of my time growing up I spent living with her.  She has been an alcoholic for as long as I can remember.  Her drinking has effected our family so much that we barely even get together or talk to one another.  I think I'm the only one who really tries to keep in touch with a few of them.  I'm sure my mom's drinking has also had an effect on my brothers, but I don't really see them anymore either.

As for my father, most of my life I have never spent time with him.  I remember once when I was 6, I asked when he was going to come visit us, he told me “When I win the lottery”.  I was heart broken because all I ever wanted was to get away from my mom and live with my dad.  Who ever would have thought that 14 years later I would have called him up for fathers day!

I barely know any of my relatives from my father's side, for obvious reasons.  On my mother's side, her sister has been my only true possitive role-model.  I always have looked up to her!  (I still do).  Dana always tells me how it is, because she wants the best for me.

Most of my growing up I spent walking around in the woods using my imagination, or locked in my room trying to pass the time.  I was always good at keeping myself entertained.

I use to be a red cross ceritified baby-sitter.  For some reason, 2 year olds love me the most!  When I was about 13, I was baby-sitting 3 kids, one of them being 8 years old!  I had my hands full, but I think it will help prepare me, even though it was so long ago.

I use to participate in the St. Charles after school activities, which I know some of those that I have attended have made a possitive impact in my life and the way I think.

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Life has a funny way of teaching things.  Be not judgemental towards others, fore you do not know their situation and circumstances for the way the are.  A few times this had been thrown in my face.  I viewed certain topics a certain way, strongly, and after going through the experience myself, my views changed and I have become more undersanding for those put into the situation. 

The most important thing to remember, we all make mistakes, we are only human and we all are just trying to survive.  Simple put.

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